For some reason this has been weighing on my mind lately.
I had had signed up for eHarmony back in the summer. I was matched with a guy named Aaron from a town about three hours to the west of me. We done the guided communication thing, sent each other an e-mail in August, and that was it. We e-mailed again in September, and then in October. The e-mail from him included his phone number. I called him a couple of days later, and left a voice mail. He never called me back. In November, he closed the match with a reason of "other."
I am really regreting not e-mailing him back after I hadn't heard from him in about a week. I really and truly do. He seemed like a good guy-- and a guy that I could get along with really well.
He owns a cattle production company and is an ag teacher. While I grew up on a farm and would love to live on a farm again, I just don't know if I could. I haven't lived on a farm in about 11 years now-- which is about half of my life. I guess I am afraid that I have "forgotten" how to live on a farm.
Maybe God intervened and saw that it wouldn't have worked out and saved Aaron and I a whole lot of grieve, heartache, and disappointment.
But I am all ready disappointed. Not in Aaron, (well, kinda-- I'm disappointed that he never called back), but I am really disappointed in the way I handled everything. For the past few days, I have had Darius Rucker's song "Don't Think I Don't Think About It" song going through my head.
I regret this-- big time. Maybe Aaron and I weren't meant to be. Or maybe it just wasn't the right time. The only person that knows is God.