A lot. I met him through eharmony. His name is Aaron, and is a teacher. Whenever I get an e-mail from him, I get butterflies in my stomach. I have this feeling like things to be great between us. The only problem? We both seem too nervous to make the first move. At least I am. I am scared to death that I might screw this up before it even gets started, and I don't want to do that, at all. I have had relationship problems this year. He seems like a real good guy and someone that I want to get to know better-- a lot better. I had met two other guys on eharmony and got to the open communication stage with, but they didn't give me the same feelings as Aaron does. The feelings I got with the other two were like "okay. He's a friend. Nothing will ever come of this." With Aaron, I get this feeling of "this could work. He could be the one."
Thankfully "Loser Friend" (as some of the peas call him) has moved out of state and is pretty much out of my life expect for random calls he makes to me to tell me how I need to do what *he* wants me to do.
I have no clue what to do. I want to talk to this guy more. I want to get to know him better. I think I am all ready starting to fall for him, and it is scary. What if he is the one for me? And what if he isn't? Why am I all over the place on my feelings? I want to know that I am loved and found attrative by a guy who is mature and caring. I want to have a family. I want to live on a farm again. I want to travel. He has a career. He seems like a nice guy. He wants children. He lives on a farm. He likes to travel and have fun.